If I have to keep it short, I'll say that I'm - an IT professional; an embryonic but a passionate blogger; an aspiring novelist; an avid foodie and an equally ardent cook; a techno fiend; a sports enthusiast; a movie buff; a music fanatic; an eternal optimist; a dreamer and a doer; ambitious and motivated; plainspoken; very inquisitive; incurably romantic; sapiosexual; a pluviophile; a minimalist. Other passions include reading, spending time with my furry and winged friends, singing, painting and sculpting.
But then, when it comes to describing ourselves, we often hide more than we reveal. And most of us become self-adulatory to the point of vanity! That we all have positive as well as negative qualities in us is intrinsically human. But more often than not, we tend to paint a goody goody image of ourselves, highlighting our positive attributes while hiding our negative traits. Of course, who wouldn't want to create an appealing impression before others? I am no exception either. But why hide the bitter traces in me with a sugary coating in order to be deemed 'likable'? I am, after all, only as strong as my weakest link! So why be scared to acknowledge that I am flawed?
I am really bad at hiding my emotions. It's probably okay to be an emotional person, or is it not? I am one, I get misty eyed at virtually every touching moment, even while watching a mundane emotional scene in a movie/TV programme or while reading a moving passage in a book. I am emotionally over-sensitive as well, I often get overwhelmed by what others say. So I get hurt easily, sometimes even over trifles! Things were far worse earlier when I used to over-react, taking things too personally. Now I have learnt how to balance my sensitivity with common sense and light-heartedness. But then, I'm mercurial -- one moment I may be sensible and the very next moment, I can be outrightly unreasonable!
I am in fact a cocktail of plenty of conflicting traits. While I am an introvert, normally a very reserved and quiet person, but I'm loquacious to a fault too, virtually unstoppable once I start talking (so much that I can be irritatingly annoying at times). Even I am not sure whether fundamentally I am a taciturn person or a talkative one. I am shy too, seldom do I initiate a conversation. However once I open up with someone, there is no stopping me. Sometimes I am witty while at other times I can be an utter bore.
Sometimes I'm the easiest to please (I am very basic with my needs and likes; more than the sophisticated and expensive objects, it's the simple and inane little things that charm me the most) and yet, sometimes I'm the hardest to convince (the reason being my penchant for perfection)! Being very fastidious, I'm often very particular about the minutest details and that can be irritating for others. I am quite callow. At times I may come across as a mature person but there are also innumerable times when I act really silly and childish. There is an exuberant inner child in me that always keeps rioting inside to come out. Yes, I have that proverbial 'child that refuses to grow up' in me (and I am happy having him inside
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Sometimes I am outgoing and sometimes I virtually turn into a recluse! I am too moody and unpredictable to be made a friend, because I'm often found oscillating between the two extremes. I am not a misanthrope though, I love and enjoy being among people, but I would still prefer solitude than being among a party crowd. And at any moment I may withdraw from the world into my cocoon! A friend had very rightly remarked once that I am easy to be friends with but difficult to keep. But yes, I'm emotionally weak when it comes to people close to me. I am quite insecure and possessive about my relationships.
I am hard-working when I need to be, but am lazy otherwise. So I often need to be whipped to get me going (Had it not been for mummy's constant pushes, I wouldn't have achieved a lot of things in my life). I'm quite whimsical and at times weird too. Often I act impulsively. I am stubborn, quite opinionated, emotionally volcanic and with a volatile temper! And at times, I may also come across as someone very clumsy.
So in a nutshell, I'm pretty much flawed. But I am happy being me. Rather 'a work in progress' is how I would describe myself. After all, it's never too late to improve and redeem oneself, to reinvent or re-discover oneself. Isn't it?
All in all, I am unique, just like every one else is...